Just Shower Thoughts

 14th April 2024                                                                                     8:43pm 

Not really sure how people start blogs so I am treating this like an online journal.

I am told journaling is good for the mind but I am too lazy to pick up a pen and a notebook.

Today I went through my google photos and saw that it took up 5GB of space so my immediate reaction was to delete all the unnecessary trash...and then it hit me, that's what my memories are worth...5GBs. All those pictures, videos, screenshots...so many memories with people I don't talk to or even see anymore. Some I deleted without any second thought others I couldn't bare to let go of. That's life I guess, people come and go. You forget many but a few are imprinted in your mind forever, like a photo you can't delete.

During my school days I lost many friends, some I fell out with and other I just lost touch with. One always romanticizes relationships, whether it be love or friendships. You read books and watch movies where friendships last forever, people marry their first love, everyone has that 'true love' waiting out for them. Then when things don't work out in real life one wonders "Am I the problem?" "Am I incapable of holding on to people?"

It hurts when you have to let go but it hurts even more when you force yourself to stay.

People should be allowed to grow in different directions and not feel bad for it.

While the past is beautiful the future is filled with hope. 

I hope..to be happy.